seeking spring within

she was insistent, twice testing window of dreams

i did not know hummingbird as night flyer

nor did i know that spirit is present in between

when sometimes waking might be needed to see.

she taught me to know a joyful way of labor

visiting as simple ceremony for hopeful hearts

as the mother lifts up our search for life nectar

while still releasing wildfire warning, forest pain.

panels of well paid thinkers, too harried to find

urgency for careful connection in complex time

we do what we can, where we roam, when we see

a mind ready to walk beyond what they know

or also, when overwhelm instead asks us to flee

what do i need for tomorrow, spirits provide

a million flowers, some new, some ancient

to begin to discern which blossoms may be mine

to let go the memories of past summers, past love

for the present balance, willing another effort

to listen to the fear, denial, stalling, avoidance

while trusting the words I’m given to speak

stop speaking long enough, to know it is received

hummingbird, joy, hope, awe, delight, you bring

even shared with teachers sitting close to demons

putting up protection, saying no, wall of my own

the forceful refusal to stop, disappear, be afraid

also patient dreaming, so a message can arrive

in its time, on whatever wings will bring it.

grateful gardener, the herbs beside the flowers

your medicine is reminding me to keep flying

even in new forceful winds, we can be family

with all that grows, flies, works and brings care

leading the people to greet life as a colourful gift.